Sunday, September 19, 2004

I feel as though Heath is avoiding me. It's not that I don't like him. I really do... I'm just not looking for serious. I've made it to a point in my life where I need time for just me. I want to meet people, and date, and not be tied down... Then again, I do want a boyfriend... Or at least someone who loves spending time with me... Who can't wait until I get off work just so they can see me...
I've taken relationships way too seriously in the past. I envy Stephanie for the way she looks at life. Every boyfriend I've ever had, I thought the world of. I pictured myself walking down the aisle with each and every one of them. Stephanie has the common sense to know that relationships don't last forever, and she's just landed her first "real" boyfriend. Maybe that's why I'm not ready. I don't want to get too attached, just incase he's pulling my leg. It's best not to have one's head in the clouds when there's fire at their feet.
Besides, boys suck.


.:dr0wningophelia:. 20:13 | |