Friday, May 21, 2004

Not only am I not going to college to "better myself," or "do something with my life," I may be an utter failure. I thought I had everything straight. "I don't need these classes to get the hell out of here. I'll just go the ones I need and fuck the rest." Now I'm scared that the school will take away the credits I've earned and leave me 5 short of graduating. Stephen and Amanda say it's impossible. If the credits are already on my transcript, they're mine. But what if they're not? What if I've royally fucked myself over? I'm so freaked out... If I have to repeat this year, I don't know that I can... I couldn't live with the embarrassment. I couldn't live with myself.
Tonight I'll just tell myself everything will work out. I need the sleep.

If I don't graduate next weekend... I might have to kill myself...

What the fuck am I doing... Holy shit...

Everything's fine...?

.:dr0wningophelia:. 23:28 | |