Sunday, May 16, 2004

I'm afraid I'm going to be lonely my entire life. Maybe not 'alone...' I hope not anyway... but at least lonely all the while.
Last night was Anna's party. It was a good time, and I got to see a more serious side to Anna's boyfriend Collin. He's a cool kid... weird, but cool. Anna's a hottie, and I got a lapdance. Good times, good times.
At four in the morning Amanda decided she'd rather be at home in her own bed, so we trekked out to the car and drove back to Carrollton.
I hope Steph is feeling better today. Yesterday was not a good day for her, and I'm afraid I may have only made it worse. It just annoys me that she would agree to go to a party with us, then sit in the backseat and curse and sulk and get pissed at nothing the entire way there, so I told her to calm down because she was bringing me down... Send in the clowns.
Today I'm supposed to go see Logan, but I'm not sure I want to. I'm afraid to. I don't want to be hurt again. I know we're only seeing each other as friends, but I don't want to put effort into something that will just blow up in my face. And with him, it's bound to happen eventually.

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