Wednesday, March 24, 2004

I'm really scared that I've wasted the past twelve years of my education. I've thrown it all away in less that 9 months, and no matter how scared I feel, or how lost I know I've become I can't get back on track. The more I worry about not making it, the less I want to even try which makes no sense at all, even to me. It's not even that anything is too difficult. If anything, it's been dumbed down so much I feel pampered. I just can't make myself... do anything anymore. I know how deep I've gotten myself. I can see how other people perceive me. Nothing helps. I'm my happiest when I'm asleep, so what's the point in being alive?
Don't read too much into this. I'm just a paranoid freak.

.:dr0wningophelia:. 22:16 | |