Tuesday, January 06, 2004

Right now, life is miserable. I just got word that Stephen gets to choose between working at Watertower Theatre and me, because of his last report card... or at least that's the story I'm getting. I'm so lost and confused, I don't even know which voice in my head I want to believe right now. I need a really big hug.

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Stephen: yeah i have a problem
Beth: what is it?
but my problem isn't with you
ok
it's with my father
is it bad?
yea its pretty bad...but i dont want you worrying about it too much
tell me
cause its bad but not that big of a deal cause we can deal with it... my dad found out that i failed two classes
and... i'm not allowed to come over anymore?
no, not quite
then what?
im supposed to choose between having a girlfriend and working up at watertower...because apparently i can't handle both
fuck... ok... shit
if you dont think we can make it through this ill drop watertower... i have to have my choice made by wed
don't drop watertower... how long is he talking?
till i get my grades up
so... are you breaking up with me?
no? i dont know... i love you
i know it won't take that long for you to get your grades up... you don't know? i have no idea what i should think... i've been torturing myself for weeks now about whether you really care about me, and now you don't know whether we can make it through 6 weeks or so of... whatever this is
no i know we can
but you don't know if you want to?
no i dont want to break up with you... i love you, and i dont want to be with out you
i feel sick... call me when you can
i love you
i love you more...

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