Thursday, January 15, 2004

I've decided it's time for me to move on. I'm not happy being sad... lol... I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself.
Yes, I've come to this conclusion on my own... No help from anyone, especially Stephen, who may have presented the idea... but never really pushed me toward it. I'm such a cool person.
I have a little crush on Cord. Granted, I know close to nothing about him, but for now that's okay. He's cute, charming, and a bit mysterious. Which is an odd thing to say when guys are usually simple-minded creatures.
I'm in such a good mood, and I blame it all on shopping. I used to hate shopping, now it makes me feel like a new person. Like I can buy who I want to be. With the right accessories, I'm one happy individual. "Money can't buy happiness..." Well, I say 'pish-posh.' I'm happy as a clam. Happy as a lark. Happy, happy, happy. And looking mighty fine. *smile*
Of course he's not going to tell me I should stop loving him. That would make him the bad guy. And besides, it feeds his ego to feel wanted.
I've been so weak and idiotic this past week. The old me, the stronger me, would never have stood for it, and finally I feel her coming back.

.:dr0wningophelia:. 21:25 | |