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Saturday, February 26, 2005

I know that it is freezing, but I think we have to walk
I keep waving at the taxi's, they keep turning their lights off
But Julie knows a party at some actors West side loft
Supplies are endless in the evening, by the morning they'll be gone

When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend
I'll get a coffee and the paper, have my own conversations
I see the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection
The mask I polish in the evening, by the morning looks like shit

And I know you have a heavy heart, I can feel it when we kiss
So many men stronger then me have thrown their backs out, trying to lift it
But me I'm not a gamble, you can count on me to split
The love I sell you in the evening, by the morning won't exist

You're looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black
Just keep going to the bathroom, always say you'll be right back
Well, it takes one to know and kid, I think you've got it bad
But what's so easy in the evening, by the morning's such a drag

I got a flask inside my pocket, we can share it on the train
And if you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same
We may die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain
But what was normal in the evening, by the morning seems insane

And I'm not sure what the trouble was, that started all of this
The reasons all have run away, but the feeling never did
It's not something I would recommend, but it is one way to live
Cause what is simple in the moonlight, by the morning never is

And what's so simple in the moonlight, now it's so complicated
And what's so simple in the moonlight, so simple in the moonlight
So simple in the moonlight...
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.:dr0wningophelia:. 13:29 | |


Sunday, February 13, 2005

Conversations between Dad and Val

Takikitty182: I went to the protestant church again today. Afterward they had a little thing where we all eat cakes and stuff- CAKE? IM THERE! lol
PiousLife: Bread of Life- CAKE
Takikitty182: asked about my husband, because it became public knowladge about our 1yr aniversary. She asked what religion he liked, I had to explain that he's not a christian- how he used to be interested about God and religion, but most recently he compared God to the Toothfairy, so I figure he doesnt care anymore. we also talked with one of the chaplins about what happend to him with Trauma. He saw his wife's car in an accident, but it didnt register that is was her, and his brain made him see the car as blue and not red, so it was a surprise to him when he heard the accident he drove past was his wife.Then before he left the lady asked him to lead us (me her, him and his wife and kids) in a prayer for my husband. I really apreciated that it was kind of them. I knew it would be strange telling David about it XD, he'd laugh at me. And indeed he did. Oh well
PiousLife: I feel it is my fault. We tried church but quit.
Takikitty182: well, he tried to look at religions since then and he just seems to not care
PiousLife: I thought I could teach them myself, now I have heatherns.
Takikitty182: aww :\ Well, my parents quit church i was little and afraid to go by myself. both of them are so smart about the Bible, neither of them will tell my why they dont do what they know is right. I think they don't want it to rub off on me
PiousLife: Beth doesn't remember, but we went to a southern baptist church with my
girlfriend. We had a bitter break up and quit going to that church. Beth begged me if we could continue there because she thought she was almost saved. I said we would go elsewhere. We did but didn't last long. I was discouraged.
Takikitty182: does she know that?
PiousLife: I think so.
Takikitty182: I never stopped believing in God, but I knew I wasnt doing the right things, i stayed that way for a long time.
PiousLife: I hate to think of heaven without my kids.
Takikitty182: yeah, it makes me sad to think we wont remember them either...
PiousLife: Maybe you and I could hang out and throw cloud balls.

It goes on to say that David and I are going to hell because we aren't Christian, Toby is going to hell because he doesn't have an everlasting soul, and that my dad likes talking to Cupid on AIM.


.:dr0wningophelia:. 13:36 | |


Wednesday, February 02, 2005

I have the worst cough my body has ever known. I feel just fine, if you don't count the light headedness, the throbbing behing my eyes, and that weird, deep itch in my chest. I went to work yesterday, even though I felt terrible. With all the sneezing I was doing, I'm surprised I'm still alive. I thought for sure my brain would eventually come seeping through my nose, but alas, it did not. Kathy took over my shift this morning so I could sleep in and recoup.


.:dr0wningophelia:. 16:22 | |